nuttin really

So.. I nagged that he had not posted in MONTHS, I have had some time today to think , well a little. I am away shopping, relaxing..not being anything to anyone but myself. I don't think many people really know what it means to be nothing but WHO they are until they are responsible for anyone other then themselves or children. I would not trade my life for anything ..there isn't anything I would change. I was cleaning and doing around the house the other night and had a moment...a moment of complete happiness. I can't remember having one those for years ..if ever...there was nothing about that moment that I would have changed. How many people get to have that moment...the moment they realize they are so truly happy? Looking back at it, the moment seems so very ordinary..I think perhaps I have them more than I have the time to realize. I need him to understand how profound that moment is for me...the life we have, the whole thing...the great times, the terrible moments..they are all GOOD. There isn't anything left to resolve. We aren't building resentment..well...I am not building resentment..I won't speak for him.

gonna get all sappy and mushy..I'll save it for later ;)